"You have no idea what you're doing so therefore you're invincible"
Exploring the thought, how sometimes not knowing what you're doing is the real freedom
I have been self-reflecting and journaling a lot lately. There was a lot of turbulence these past couple of days for me—days where it just felt hard to do anything that required energy. But today, something really spoke to me. A thought crossed my mind, and I finally feel like I’ve got my groove back.
I am sitting down to write my thoughts out now. Two days ago, I was wrestling with Belle, and we were chatting while working through some positions. She said something that made complete sense to me: the hardest wrestlers to go against are the ones who don't know what they're doing. When she said that, I truly understood it. Memories flooded back of getting hit in the face, moving the wrong way, the pure frustration, and just getting beaten out of position by someone utterly unpredictable.
Then, I was watching one of my favorite TV shows, The Bear, and one of the chefs said there is power in not knowing—that it makes you invincible. When I really focused on that, it clicked.
Today, when I was working on the front headlock, we were exploring so many different positions I had never really taken the time to go over. We were doing front head switches and learning entirely new motions. There wasn't any frustration or worry attached to it. It was just exploring, having fun, jamming out to music, and working incredibly hard. I was completely out of breath.
That quote hit me hard. I feel like when we know what we're doing—or assume we know what we're doing—we put a massive amount of expectation and pressure on ourselves. I know I do, and suddenly, nothing is enjoyable anymore. One tiny crack starts to look like a shattered windshield, and everything feels like it's falling apart.
But if we step into unfamiliar territory, it feels like freedom. Like stepping onto a blank mat with zero expectations, you have the freedom to make mistakes, to try new things, and to just give it your absolute best shot.
There is something so poetic about that. I keep repeating it over and over in my head: What is it to truly not know what you're doing?
I feel that ties directly into trusting the process. It is about having an end goal, but understanding that the path to get there isn't a straight line—so you just work at it. When you operate from that space of freedom, failures become lessons, not mental breakdowns. Setbacks become hurdles you know you can jump over. Those matches you lost, or the struggles you faced, simply become challenges rather than roadblocks.
There was just something so powerful about that one little phrase in a cooking show. I love how I can take different aspects of my life and apply that mindset across the board. I honestly think that is exactly how I approach parenting. I don't always know what I'm doing, but I feel like that exact freedom is what has made Abrams such a happy, groovy guy.
Yeah. Just some really good stuff today, and it feels good to be back.
I hope everyone reading this had a great Wednesday. So, I'll leave you with this: What is something you can challenge yourself to dive into while knowing absolutely nothing? For me today, it was the front head switch.